.you'll come.
I don't have the strength to stay away from you anymore and I hate you for making me want you so much.
So those are two quotes that I loved from Twilight...among a few other things, no they weren't one statement but I feel like they can totally go together as one big blob. I was on facebook today (find me if we aren't friends...lol, Ashley Michelle) I ran across one of my old friends. Her name is Megan. Se's been in a homosexual relationship for like...a year now I think?? Idk. Something close to it. I found a note on her page called finish the sentences...
it broke my heart.
In the note she had a couple sentences that really got to me one was "Maybe I should...call some of my old friends." "I lost...my tka friends."
The last two really cut me though:
19. My soulmate...is beautiful and wonderful. i hope you will one day see that.
20. My life...would be perfect if my old friends still talked to me.
It hit me that all her friends in her sorority and maybe people in her family had straight up abandoned her because of her choice to have a girlfriend. That's sad. And maybe I'm wrong (geez I hope I am) but it seems that I'm not and it struck me, why does it matter so much to everyone else who we fall in love with? So what if MY husband doesn't fall into YOUR standard--that's why I'm marrying him. Since when did we turn our backs on the people that we love because they do something that we don't like when it has no effect on us? It scared me a little. I wonder how many real friends we actually have that accept us for who we truly are...I wonder how many of us have put on a facade for the sake of our friends for so long that we have lost who we truly are...I wonder how long it will take people to figure out that wearing a disguise kills your soul.
I AM BLESSED to have the friends that I do have. The people I consider my friends I can count on my hand, because I know that if I don't feel comfortable telling you what's going on in my life--you aren't my real friend. Real friendship involves TRUST and I may like you but that doesn't mean I trust you.
So this one goes out to my real friends--I hope you know who you are.
=)
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Very, very sad, but so true.
I've wondered who my real friends are. I've wondered who would still associate with me if I pierced my tongue, got a girlfriend, or cut off all my hair (one down, lmao ;).
You never know who's really in your life because they appreciate the beauty of who you are, until you start really branching out and coming into your own. That's when some people really show the loyalty they have, and when others, sadly, start showin' out.