The Little Things
"And it takes no time to fall in love
But it takes you years to know what love is
And it takes some fears to make you trust
It takes some tears to make it rust
It takes the dust to have it polished"
please excuse my decision to make this post o'so dramatic...and now back to the blog.
Life is so interesting. It's crazy how just 2 weeks prior everything will seem to be perfect, and then there it all lay--shattered on the floor and you're sitting there looking at it like...what just happened?
Yep, that's how I'm feeling right about now.
*sigh* I mean, it all happens. Everything is crashing, but not really. There are just certain aspects of my life that are absolutely at the worst point that they could be at.
Mostly my love life.
Soooo, my o'so fabulous boyfriend/best friend are no longer together, and that's been about the way it's been for about a month, however we were still friends among other things. [pause] and now we aren't even friends...let me let that sink in.
we aren't even friends.
I have no idea how I'm supposed to feel about this. My brain just isn't comprehending any of this right now, but it will have to eventually. How the hell do you go from being best friends to not friends at all? Well...first you break up, then you get "back together" without being together, then you break up and come to terms that you two probably shouldn't talk anymore--at all...then he needs to posts up a song that in essence says he wishes he never met you...and then you finally say you give up and give it to God--which is what you've supposedly been doing all along. YES MY FRIENDS, that's how it's done, in case you would like to do it.
Anyway...as far as other things in my life, eh, they're okay. I get to see my best friend in a week! All the way from Ohio...thank God...I need some distractions...so many things are about to be happening and I just have to be ready to let certain things go...and the hardest one to let go was him...and since I chose to fight and not let go when I was supposed to...it all went sour. However, I know that life will get better...
"It takes some silence to make sound
And it takes a loss before you found it
And it takes a road to go nowhere
It takes a toll to make you care
It takes a hole to MAKE a mountain"
Life gets better. Life goes on...and most importantly
I WILL BE OKAY.
1 teardrops:
i completely get the whole ''how can you go from this to that you know... it really is the worst sometimes but i'm glad you're seeing the positive in everything =)