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"Oh maybe I'll build my house on your cloud
Here I'm tumbling for you
Stumbling through the work that I have to do"

Those lyrics are from "Plane" by Jason Mraz...and I don't know what he was talking about, but it made me think of all the work I need to do on myself...how it all seems to be trial and error...how so many decisions I've made haven't necessarily been for me, but for others benefits...or at least so that the most people would be satisfied...but yeah. That's my random-ish thought. I'm living on a cloud...

moving on...

I am eternally grateful for my friends.

The ones that listen to me ramble and somehow find a way to sift through the BS parts to get to the real issue...asking the right question that causes me to look off into the distance and really get into my brain and question the logic of my decision.

So now that all my anger is basically gone--I've had a chance to stop and look at things from a more level headed perspective, and I have to say that I'm still okay with the decision I made...and I'm happy with the course that my life is about to take...even though I know it will be difficult.

ANYWAY--thank you D, thank you C, thank you J. Thank you so much more than you'll ever know.

"I've put myself in so many chaotic circumstances.
By the grace of God
I've been given so many second chances.
But today I've decided to let it all go.
I'm dropping these bags,
I'm making room for my joy.
And I choose, to be the best that I can be.
I choose, yo be authentic in everything I do.
My past don't dictate who I am.
I choose."

Yeah--that's how I'm feeling. Today--officially on Sunday, March 15th 2009 at 12:11 am, I am choosing to do it right, and while I may not always get it right...at least I'll know I did the make the best decision for me.

WOOOOO...talk about a weight lifted off the shoulders and a little bit of piece...just what I needed before I lay my head down to sleep.