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"Let thoughts and heart desires be one in the same."

It's crazy how sometimes it just takes a little thing to put everything else in perspective. I found that quote inside the wrapping of a Dove chocolate and it made me really think about my heart and where I am with my relationship with other people and God. It has definitely been an uphill battle, but it's well worth it.

I love my life. Not necessarily everything in it, not necessarily everything about it, but I wouldn't change a single thing. It hasn't been easy, but it's been worth it in the long run. Today was spent just reflecting on what I have right now and how I plan on keeping it.

This has been a very trying time; living in another state than my family, dealing with the bull that people at UF put me through, rededicating my life to God and subsequently trying to live my life in a way that is healthy for myself and that gives Him glory. I consider myself a very strong individual, but it's been hard. So now I'm pouring it all out and being serious with myself about everything and hopefully writing it out helps.

I've learned the hard way that things will never always work out the way you want them to and that even when you have the best intentions, people will still take your actions the wrong way and that no matter how much you care about someone, they won't always share your caring feelings back, and just because someone is head over heels in love with you, it doesn't mean you'll feel the same either...and it sucks to have to tell them that. People will hurt you and not care. People will try to break you down for no reason at all...however, one of the most important lessons I learned is that a good friend, is someone that doesn't always tell you what you want to hear, but will always tell you what you need to hear. It seems basic, but it's crazy how many "good friends" aren't.

Anyway, I wouldn't change my life at all. All the pain was worth it. All the joy was worth it. Every "mistake" in someone elses' eyes was a learning experience in mine, and some lessons just have to be learned.