My Blog

so I have no song...I just have my raw emotions and the fact that I'm human and that other people in this world exist that don't know how I feel, or that don't know me at all...and there are certain things that just...effect me.

I hate reading things or seeing things that remind me of my past--any aspect of it that is particularly unpleasant to me. So of course that means I ran across something that someone else wrote that made me *ding* think of someone I didn't want to think of and I got pissed...and hurt...but it wasn't as bad as I thought it would be.

Sooooo yeah...moving on.

I received some advice that I shouldn't keep my blog private...and I think I might end up following that advice, so thank you Miss (or Mister) Anonymous. =)

My best friend is here and it is the best thing possible. I have laughed more in the past 18.5 hours than I have in a long time...which reminds me of how much it's going to SUCK when she leaves...but for now, I'm relishing the fact that she is still here. I take for granted how amazing it is to have someone of the same sex that is actually looking out for my best interest at all times. I mean, everyone says they have close friends, but maybe you don't tell them everything. I tell this girl...everything...and honestly that has the potential to "go bad" but that's the joy in having a friend that goes to school in another state...there isn't really much she could do to ruin me (not that she would) and it's the same way with me to her--I can't do much...if we were to get into an argument of some sort, we would just have to part ways. I wouldn't be forced to see her face everyday or have her name pop up in conversation all the time because people know her and I wouldn't have to bite my lip in frustration when I see something that could pertain to her...

wow.

off track and thinking about what happened again. uggggh...anyway--aside from that, life is pretty good. I'm getting closer and closer to my cut-off day...I already have things in my head as far as what I'll need to get once it's all done. My main list so far is eye makeup and big earrings...call me crazy but that's what I keep envisioning...lol...me with some banging eye makeup on and some big earrings and a simple outfit. *silently muses on it*

I gotta do some work.

crap. I am SO far behind. *sigh*