Nov 4, 2009 /
I'm not here anymore...
I'm here..
theashleymichelle.blogspot.com
ummm...it's a bit more...me? yeah...a bit more honest, a bit more......just a bit more. oh well. :D
Aug 17, 2009 / let's talk college, Phillipians, satisfaction, wants vs. needs
my apologies.
I'm going to get back on top of this as soon as things slow down lol, more updates tonight though, I just have a WHOLE lot to do today, I've been doing a lot of my blogging type stuff on tumblr.com (http://sheisl0ved.tumblr.com if you care to check it out) but I will be back on here regularly as of tonight. *hopefully*
Jun 13, 2009 / let's talk family, honesty, past, relationships, truth
Unleashing Demons.
I'm tired of keeping up a front. I have broken down inside and I can't quite put my finger on it, but I'm losing it all. I have never (in recent times at least) felt more alone than I do now. I am opening up my heart right now and laying it all on the line because I can't continue to act like everything is fine in my mind when in actuality I am falling apart every which way, dropping crucial limbs everywhere and simply not caring enough to pick them back up. I'm scared for my life right now.
May 30, 2009 / let's talk character makeover, confidence, envy, self-esteem, self-love
.live like you're dying.
So...first, I bought this indy-pop-ish album this week on a limb lol...and I remembered why I love "white" music so freaking much! It's so uplifting and happy, like seriously--a lot of the things they talk about are related to love and stuff, but it's all joyful and cheerful, so I can just bob my head from side to side...lol...I never realized how unhappy I actually might have been until I realized the potential of my happiness by looking at how happy I had been at points in my life. Does that make sense?
"I envy the fact that you know yourself so well and I’m still sitting here confused about where to begin to look when it comes down to finding myself."It hit me how little I understand myself, and in my tired ramblings I something so true to me. I still felt unfulfilled with myself. I was still devaluing myself. I am still completely lost as to who the heck I am. I am still comparing myself to others. However, there is an upside to this...I have made progress. It may seem small, but any progress is still progress...lol.
Psalm 139:14-18 (New Living Translation)14 Thank you for making me so wonderfully complex!Your workmanship is marvelous—how well I know it.15 You watched me as I was being formed in utter seclusion,as I was woven together in the dark of the womb.16 You saw me before I was born.Every day of my life was recorded in your book.Every moment was laid outbefore a single day had passed.17 How precious are your thoughts about me, O God.They cannot be numbered!18 I can’t even count them;they outnumber the grains of sand!And when I wake up,you are still with me!
May 16, 2009 / let's talk goal, God, Matthew, prize, summer 2009
.whatcha lookin at.
May 14, 2009 /
.sweeter than you.
but on a serious note: what would you give for total happiness? how long are you willing to wait? what are you willing to give up in order to have the best life you possibly could?
May 11, 2009 / let's talk dad, family, future, me, mom
slow dancing in a burning room..